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Where Did My Faith Go?

I know I’ve stated that I believe more in science and energy now rather than having a religion.  It really does make more sense to my skeptical, analytical side.  However, I feel like a big piece of me is missing.  I miss the days where I had faith in a higher power.  I miss believing in something bigger and better.  I miss the love I felt when I spoke with the Gods and Goddesses.  It made me feel more of a sense of belonging.  I know I belong to this earth, but I just don’t feel it.  And there are so many unanswered questions that don’t feel are answered without spirituality.

faith-and-reasonI have discussed this briefly with a friend before, and she said to just let go and let spirituality come naturally – its not something I should have to work at.  I agree with that.  But I find it hard to do when there is so much “proof” of evolution of the universe.  I understand that as a human there is infinite knowledge I will never acquire, and spirituality could help fill the gaps.  But at the same time, I have a hard time feeding into the myths and legends that make up different religions.

I’m at a crossroads, and I’m definitely feeling this crisis of faith as a burden at this point.  So I’m reaching out to my readers.  Where do I go from here?  I know this is a deeply personal path that only I can walk.  But I feel I need some guidance.

5 thoughts on “Where Did My Faith Go?

  1. First, I appreciate your vulnerability. Thank you for that gift.

    Since you asked…I find peace in the connnections between physics and spirituality, which some call cosmology. Diamurd O 'Murchu is helpful to me. A study of synchronicity as grace also helps me. Blessings on your journey.

    O'MurchuOx'Murchu is helpful to me.


  2. I have a couple of interesting ways to look at things that I wouldnt mind sharing. Again, AS ALWAYS, these are just my thoughts in how I see the big picture 🙂 it's not meant to change anything or challenge someone else's thoughts… just to give new perspective 🙂

    For me, I combine a lot of science with my spirituality. For instance, String or M theory talks about the great possibility of other/extra/inner-dimensions… some are infinitely close and small but infinitely massive if you could enter them. Sounds like the old stories of Faerie Doorways or paths to Elven Kingdoms, does it not? If you add in the concept of spiritual energy: you may call it a soul, chi, life-force, the oversoul… but you could give the reasoning why we have ghosts, various concepts for an afterlife, elemental planes, Astral planes, 'greater' spiritual beings… etc.
    Much like radiowaves, I believe spiritual energy and the planes they exist one vibrate at a certain frequency. All matter is just a vibration after all, and when it slows down just enough, it will phase into 'our world/reality' henceforth hauntings (hate that word by the way), encounters and the like.

    Scientist also believe that much of the Universe is missing and cannot be identified (dark matter). For me, the way I look at things, I add a component of 'spiritual energy' to these ideas… but's immeasurable to our instruments but ties 'the everything' together.

    As for the thoughts about evolution, in my eyes, GREAT! i feel humankind as a whole has forgotten that they are indeed part of nature. And as nature has been around for so long, genetics will change (aka evolution). We ~ARE~ indeed just animals. The only difference is we can communicate a lot easier than our furry co-survivors on our lovely planet. We understand spiritual ideas and science and therefore (many of us) come to question 'what's out there'. Not a bad thing… it's always good to question, think, evolve as a person 🙂

    I hope this sheds light on how I feel about things. Terribly hope it might inspire you, not to change your mind, but to think about things a new way and help you find your own spiritual path on your journey 🙂

    ~MANY~ Blessings and hope for your travels 🙂
    …faerie path wanderer… …bard…


  3. I completely understand where you're coming from. I used to practice an earth based religion myself and after a while it just didn't feel right, but the absence of that practice, that belief, left me feeling hollow and like a piece of myself was missing. I agree with your friend that faith of any kind should come naturally and in it's own time. One way I've dealt with that emptiness is to sit back and think about what I really believe and thing, to meditate on it a bit. I know they might seem a little childish at first, but this video series has really helped me. It kind of melds science and spirituality. It might help you too. http://thespiritscience.net/spirit/about-spirit-science/


  4. as an Agnostic Pagan, I feel your pain. To me, if there IS a Creator/Creatrix of the Universe, they are probably beyond human comprehension and don't care what we consider them. As long as we are good people, we honor a good Deity, and I'm sure that if there is one that He/She/It wouldn't want us stressing out about if they are there or not. I don't feel connected 24/7 either, but I know that the Sun will rise and without it, we would be extinct. I know the Moon will rise, and without it, we would die out, too. I prefer to take in what I see and know that it is amazingly complex and beautiful and worthy of wonder. I don't need to give reverence to ANY Deity for that – and if evolution is true (and I think it is), the Earth itself is Divine in it's own way. Message me if you want to chat about it 🙂


  5. Faith is a touchy thing. I continue to struggle a lot with what I believe and what I don't believe. The only advice I have is that if you aren't feeling it in your heart… in your life… then it's probably not right for you. At least, at this point. While faith is always a “trust” that can/will be challenged at times it also shouldn't be making you completely miserable. While I struggle with my own decisions about it, I can't really help but to let you know that I am here to talk to :).


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