|© 2008 Shauna McFadden|
I have been feeling more creative lately, so I have been trying to get back into drawing. I found some Prismacolor pencils at Hobby Lobby for 40% off, so I figured it would be the perfect reason to draw again. But so far my creativity has been squashed by responsibility. This is why I haven’t been able to continue my art since shortly after high school. I love being a mom, but the kids take all of my energy and by the end of the day I’m left with nothing but the desire to zone out and relax or sleep. I’m feeling particularly frustrated with it today. I was really set on drawing something colorful and unique this morning. I even got my DeviantArt account all set up with my old images. And then I needed to serve lunch, and I needed to get in the middle of a couple of arguments, and I needed to make sure chores were done…. and now I’m very uninspired. I really miss being able to express myself through drawing or computer graphics. I have got to find a way to make it happen again.
Beyond just today, I’ve been so busy with life this month that I haven’t had much time to post here, either, or write back to my penpals. I’ve been busy getting my divorce finalized, which was really just a matter of paperwork after being separated for 10+ years. It was final on May 6th. I have been busy with the house hunt, which I’ve posted about a couple of times. Still nothing definite, but there are a couple of leads we will be looking into next week. And I’ve been busy planning our wedding! Sean and I chose June 21st – Summer Solstice. Our ceremony will be during the Pagan Jubilee that will be going on that day. We have received our rings and made the choice about venue, but other than that, nothing is set in stone yet. We have a lot yet to do.
Hopefully I can find the time over the next week or so to fulfill some of these desires. I don’t want this artist that is screaming to come out, to die. She was asleep for over a decade, and its time she comes out and colors my world again. It needs to be a priority again instead of stuck behind everything else.