I am having a problem with my spirituality. I feel like I’ve lost it entirely. My faith and well-being has been replaced with skepticism and doubt. I always want to know how everything works, and over time I have become so jaded that I don’t even truly know if a creator or spiritual realm exists at all anymore. It seems like with knowledge, all of the spirituality I have ever felt has been reasoned away. Ghosts can be explained by existence through multiple dimensions or a multi-verse. Near-death and out of body experiences can be explained by the way the brain reacts during trauma and electrical impulses. Miracles and mysteries all have an explanation if you turn to science. This place between abstract thinking, knowledge, wisdom, and the basic human need of feeling like I belong is a very lonely and sad place to be. It makes me feel like I am without purpose or reason.
I want so desperately to be able to believe again. I want to know that God(s) is [up in Heaven] or all around me, looking over me, and only giving me what I can handle. I want to believe that this is a life I chose for myself for the lessons it is teaching me, and that every day is a blessing. I want to find that positivity again. And I want the community that comes with it.
Birth, life and death is all a cycle that happens to everything in existence. I wish to be able to just shut off the skepticism and the need to know everything and just have blind faith in love and the spiritual realm. Its such a happier and more fulfilled place to be. I hate over analyzing everything.