Due to my physical limitations with my hip dysplasia, my surgeries, and some family issues, I have been out of work for a little over 2 months. For the last few weeks I haven’t been able to such as lift anything or exercise besides walking, and walking is limited due to my hips. This is not a complaint, it is just fact. But the complaint here is that it sucks!
On Tuesday I get to go for a recheck with the surgeon who performed my Panniculectomy, and at that time I will most certainly be asking if I can resume exercise. I know I have a weight restriction for at least 6 weeks of 10 pounds, so weight training isn’t an option yet. But if I could go to the YMCA and ride a stationary bike, or walk a treadmill for short periods that I can handle, or do some other aerobic activity, that would be wonderful! Plus I feel like I’m losing muscle mass. I know I’m not gaining weight back, but I feel lazy and depressed. I need activity.
I’d also like to be able to volunteer my time in the local shelter, or help a groomer with bathing dogs, or something of that sort. I need to find things to do outside of my home, with other people, in some sort of social environment. I miss my work so very much, but I don’t think I’d be capable of doing everything that being a veterinary assistant requires anymore, as sad as that makes me. That was honestly my dream job. I learned something new every day. It made me think, and exercised my brain.
I need to find more activities that do that for me. I’m going stir-crazy in my home all the time. I don’t know how I managed to be a stay-at-home mom for 12 years. It’s no wonder I had social anxiety so bad, being cooped up and secluding myself from other people. The social anxiety isn’t gone, but I certainly don’t want it getting worse again. I need to push myself to do more. I need to grow as a person, not take steps backwards.